Monday, August 29, 2016

Peeps, Are You Still There?


In May when I put this blog to sleep, my husband was not happy with me. He thought I was quitting too soon. But I knew I could not keep it up and did not want to do a shoddy job of anything, much less my blog. I instinctively knew that every ounce of me must set to work to fight cancer. It has been and still is a hard fight!!!! But thanks to many of you, I have held on to hope and prayer which are the real howitzers of the battle. I am a long way from winning the war, but I can see the enemy wearing down the tiniest bit. I am not sure if I should post here or not, but I do miss you all!

I miss reading blogs…of writing blogs…of reading books…of writing poems and fiction. At first I could not even hold a book, but I am once again reading some. I can’t write but my mind begins to whirl a bit again. If you don’t hear from me, it is because I am very sick and can’t write or visit your pages. I have been reading a few pages but sometimes even writing a one line comment is too much for me.

God and I are talking things over and I am trying to figure what I could do for Him if he allows me to stay here longer. I have always tried to be a good person (although I often missed the mark!), so I am not sure I can change that part of my living.  However, ovarian cancer is little understood and is a silent demon that tiptoes up on women and takes them hostage. So maybe I could be a spokesperson….raise money for research…use my writing to promote information to spare other women my plight. Maybe I will experience a miracle and am simply to tell others about it.  I just don’t know.

I have already learned much including how good and kind people are or can be. I can’t begin to thank you for specific things without risking leaving someone out. However, I have received Masses said in France, cards mailed from Australia, prayers from the Deep South, candles lit in Illinois, medals and prayer cards of Saint Peregrine (patron saint of cancer), shawls from St. Louis, scarves from numerous places, hats from friends, and so many kind, kind words from all over the world. My book club went together and bought me an iPad so I can watch movies during my six hour chemo days.

I have been supported by family, friends, neighbors, associates, but the most astounding thing has been you Blogger Peeps! I have a huge basket of cards from people I have never ever even met face to face or talked to on the phone! From my words alone, you came to care for me. You did not throw me over when I could no longer be a blogger too. The profound statements you made and the prayers you prayed made a wet spot on my desk where I opened both snail mail and email and cried like a baby in gratitude.


I don’t when or if or how I can write again here, but I want to return to you if at all possible. Again thanks for all the continued prayers and support and kindness. I am grateful, humbled, and filled with JOY by you. 


10 comments:

Rebecca said...

Oh! I came right over when I saw your comment on my blog! I'm SO happy to read our words. They hold so much meaning for me. I've read them twice already and will read them again.

One. Day. At. A. Time. Don't load your mind with next week, month or year! He has a purpose and plan for you Right Now.

Stay strong. Think health. Be patient with and kind to yourself.

And write again when you can ♥

Mevely317 said...

You just made my day! Cheers, to better, stronger days!

Elephant's Child said...

Heartfelt hugs and oceans of caring.
Now and always.

Weekend-Windup said...

God is there for everyone in joy and sorrow.

Patricia A. Laster said...

I nearly jumped out of my chair when I saw your post listed on my blogger page!!! I have really missed you and your writing. God's blessings on you and may God's spirit pervade your body along with the chemo and "spirit" away the demon of cancer. Love to an unseen but beloved friend.

Linda O'Connell said...

My heart skipped a beat when I saw you had posted. So thankful you are battling this awful disease. You have so many people cheering for you, and praying for your strength and recovery. Do what you can, and take it easy. So pleased to read your heartfelt words. Hugs from St. Louis.

Linda O'Connell said...

My heart skipped a beat when I saw you had posted. So thankful you are battling this awful disease. You have so many people cheering for you, and praying for your strength and recovery. Do what you can, and take it easy. So pleased to read your heartfelt words. Hugs from St. Louis.

K9friend said...

Continuing to send prayers for strength and healing your way. Remember that miracles happen every single day.

Pat Wahler

Lisa Ricard Claro said...

I saw that you had posted something on Facebook and so hopped over here to see if you had blogged, and you did. I'm so glad! More than anything I'm happy that you feel well enough to begin again doing things that bring you joy, even if you are limited in your strength to do them.

The prayers and loving thoughts will continue, my friend!

BECKY said...

I, too, was shocked and so happy when I saw your new blog post, too. I'm just now coming back to leave comments on all your newest ones. You've been a busy blogger lately! :)